I Did Not Break the Habit. GOD did.

I’ve been in bondage of sin. As a young Christian back then, I struggled hard to break free, thinking I was doing it for the glory of God. I’d do well for a few weeks then end up going back to doing the same habit. I’d try again and end up failing over and over. It had become so cyclic that I started to feel sick of myself. I began hating myself and started to think that I didn’t deserve God’s love. I praise God for bringing me to a point where I finally learned what grace is all about. All those years, I’ve deluded myself into thinking that I have to change for the Lord when, all the while, He wanted to do that transformation Himself. I’ve struggled to become a better me using my own strength when, all the while, God just wanted me to declare defeat, to admit my weakness and say, “Lord, I’m a hopeless case. I see it now. I can’t save and change myself. I need You!” After all, the Lord said: "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.”

I am who I am right now, not by my own works, not by my own strength, not by my own confidence. It is through total surrender to Christ’s Lordship that I’ve known victory and been made whole. And the Lord is not done with me yet. The Lord is still in the process of pointing out bits and pieces of me that I have to let go of, molding in me a new heart that desires holiness, so that I could become the person He originally intended me (“us”) to be – His creation made in His image. He’s the only One who can genuinely change a person's heart!

Ephesians 2:8-9 For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God — not by works, so that no one can boast.

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