God above all else?

As I was waiting for the shuttle this morning, the Lord reminded me about the day when my parents and sister drove me off to the airport. The most vivid thing I remember that day was that after the hugs and goodbyes, I checked in and I didn't look back. I have this image of them in my head. But I didn't take a glance back.

I knew in my heart (since it has been my prayer as I prepared myself with the reality of my departure, knowing that it'd be years before get to hug them again) that if the Lord would pull me away from my family, if i would go in obedience to follow His will, He would take care of them. He would look after their health, keep them safe and provide for all their needs. That was my faith as I bravely walked forward. I know my God. He is a promise-keeper. He is faithful.

The Lord brought me back to the Scriptures and reminded me of Lot's wife when they were running away from Sodom. Is there anything, like Mrs. Lot, that is holding me back from following God? Jesus said in Luke 14:33: "...those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be My disciples." Do I really trust Him entirely and love Him above all else? Would I be like Peter, that when he heard John said, "It's the Lord!" he literally dropped everything (his net, the fish, his boat) and jumped into the water and headed toward Jesus? (John 21:7)

I guess I need a heart check.  Psalm 139:23-24