Died to Ol' Self

Philippians 3:10-11 “I want to know Christ and experience the mighty power that raised Him from the dead. I want to suffer with him, sharing His death, so that one way or another I will experience the resurrection from the dead!” This was the verse that came into my mind as I write this.

Before the anointing service in our Church last Sunday (1/12/14), I had one prayer in my heart – for God to show me my death. I wanted to see it – to have the assurance that I’ve already died with Christ on the cross, been buried, and therefore have also been resurrected with Him. A confirmation that I’ve died to my old self (2 Corinthians 5:17).

Even before it was my turn to be prayed over and anointed by our pastor, I was already feeling the strong presence of the Holy Spirit. And when the Pastor anointed me with oil, I immediately felt the flow of the Spirit, so strong that I fell back. Someone caught me and sat me on the floor. But the moment I felt myself hit the carpet, with my eyes closed, I felt being covered by something from my feet, to my head and my surrounding became pitch black, even though I knew very well that I was in a well-lit room. It was brief, swift. Yet I felt no fear, only peace. I opened my eyes, I was crying and I couldn’t keep my hands from shaking and my tongue from uttering praises. God has answered my prayer! There's no turning back! Hallelujah!

Galatians 2:20 “My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me.”

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